Have you ever tried to put off thinking about something only to have it push its way to the center of your mind at every oppurtunity?
Yeah. I thought so.
This past week made it a year since Mom passed away. This has been especially difficult since it falls right around Mother's Day. I haven't really looked forward to the holiday like I did in the past...
-Insert big, heartfelt sigh here.-
I tried to keep busy this week. To keep my mind filled with the both the mundane tasks and important neccessities of being a mommy, a wife, daughter and artist. This tactic held fast for a while...and then it all went kaplooey.
I was overcome. Flashes of what she looked like in the hospital as she struggled to breathe that last night....memories of her laugh and the sound of her voice (how I miss that!).....
I was in so much pain that I couldn't blog about it, but I was so overwhelmed with it that I simply blanked out when I'd try to come up with something.
I miss her. She was a wonderful Mom...and my very best friend.
Happy Mother's Day, Momma!
P.S. Happy Mother's Day, Y'all!
4 comments:
I'm so sorry about the death of your mother. I know that this time of year is so hard for so many. My little brother passed away two years ago and it has been very hard on my mother. I hope that in your pain you find peace.
So sorry you've been overwhelmed and hurting. That's a hard place to be. Hugs to you!
I've been thinking about you all week...I just didn't know whether to bring it up. Does that sound dumb? I know it does. I just didn't know how to handle it so I've just been praying. Today at lunch I prayed for those who have lost their mothers this past year. We all felt the loss today..thinking of Aunt J. not being there. We love you, Anna. I so understand all those thoughts of what happened before she died, of what she was like before. . . I think I am grateful that the only way I can think of her is smiling. And her bright blue eyes twinkling.
Dear Anna,
I'm back. (The mom of 5 sons!)
I'm so sorry about your mom. I lost mine also. I was a young mother like you.
She was only 59.
I know the pain, the memories and heart~ache. I'm so sorry.
She will forever live on in your heart, and you will now carry on her legacy.
Blessings to you.
I'm here if you ever need to talk.
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